You know those moments when you don't know to feel? You're angry but also hurting. The last week has been a whirlwind of happiness yet it has faded to being hurt.
I'm the type of person who doesn't expect a lot- once we're friends, that's it. I will go above and beyond for you, there's no ifs, ands or buts about it. The thing is, it takes a lot for someone to have a space in my heart. I don't trust easily but when I do, that's it.
And when I'm upset, I expect that person to CARE, to sympathize or something. It doesn't take a lot to make me upset but when I am, all I ask is that you get it. And you don't brush it off like nothing has happened.
And I don't want you to dismiss our friendship- I have done a lot for you and you for me and that just doesn't vanish. I expect you to put in SOME effort or some caring.
My heart is hurting and I feel like this ALWAYS happens to me. Maybe because when I care, I care too much. There isn't anything I wouldn't do for the people I care about. And for once, for once in my life, I wish that was returned.
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