picture challenge: day eighteen

day eighteen: a picture of the sexiest person alive

Since this was odd one, I think the way a person can be most attractive is to be themselves without trying to fake being someone that their not. Being true blue is something to be treasured, even if you lose people in the process. Because if you're honest to yourself, that's all that really matters.

picture challenge: day seventeen

day seventeen: someone who has had a huge impact on your life recently.

scott reeves<3

SO like I met him back in July for the first time and I was just dying. Like when he sang Jessie's girl, I was freaking out. Like I was so excited to see Port Chuck in July, and the night I saw them, I was having a bad night but when they came out for Jessie's girl, I was DYING. And like when I heard Scott sing Hallelujah on GH I died. It's one of my favorite songs and he sings it so well. And he's very devoted to his faith and he is always so positive and it is something to be admired...it is something I admire.

And then when they came to Boston, I was SO excited. Like I couldn't wait.And when Scott got to me, I was so nervous but so excited.And he gave me the biggest hug and I told him who I was on twitter & stuff and he was like, he knew who I was and he'd look for my tweets on twitter. it was amazing<3

8.26.11 best day ever.

CAN WE KINDA DIE OVER THIS PICTURE?!?! LIKE oh my gosh, I was dying. When Port Chuck came here on Friday, I did the Platinum which was kinda expensive but TOTALLY WORTH IT. Like the last time I saw Port Chuck, it was bad for me. Like they were amazing but stuff around me was making me anxious so I couldn't 100% enjoy myself. But this time, it was amazing. When Scott came to my table, I told him who I was and that I ran Carolyn's twitter and told him my personal twitter name too and he gave me the biggest hug. I was just SO happy. And like he's become an inspiration for me. Like he's really religious and hearing him be so positive is super inspiring for me. Because like I struggle with my religion a lot, and what I believe. And so hearing him love his faith so much and being positive, it really helps. And before he left my table, he was telling me that he'd see me on twitter. I was just so happy that day, it truly made my entire month. And it made up for my bad experience of last month<3

picture challenge: day 16

day sixteen: a picture of someone who inspires you.

carolyn<3

I know I talk about her all the time but she really is my hero and she inspires me every single day. Like her daily challenge are so important. Some of them are about self confidence which I struggle with every day. Like I always feel there is always going to be someone better, prettier or smarter than I am. Some days I don't struggle with it as much but some days are really hard. And like her daily challenges make me want to be a better person. Sometimes it's easy to judge someone but we don't really know them. And if we don't like someone, we just have to take a deep breath and walk away although there are some things we want to say. But being rude helps no one, and even if we think it's going to make us feel better in that moment, it really doesn't.

I think the most inspiring thing Carolyn has ever said is "I don't want anything to do with anyone who doesn't want anything to do with me because of the way I look." When I heard this, I hadn't met Carolyn yet and I was having a really hard time in high school and hearing this made me feel better about everything. And even now, like I'm not around those high school people anymore, there are people who make me feel so crappy about myself and I just have to remember I don't want anything to do with them and I don't want to be associated with them.

port chuck

8.26.11.

I cannot wait for tonight<3

As much fun as last time was, I didn't really enjoy myself but tonight I totally will and I am just SO excited to see Scott.

picture challenge: day fifteen

day fifteen: a picture of something you want to do before you die

trapeze flying.

I am SO scared of height, like I get plane anxiety the majority of the time before I fly. But I really want to get over my fear of flying and this is the one thing I want to do before I die.

daily challenge for august 25th

she is the absolute cutest. i can't even deal with her<3

Carolyn Hennesy on WhoSay

picture challenge: day fourteen

day fourteen: a picture of your favorite store

bath and body works<3

I just love all the different lotions.

Thoughts....

I know I've been way behind on my picture challenge..I'll catch up, I swear. I actually like doing it a lot. But lately I've been thinking a lot about life and the people in my own life. So I'm just going to number a few important thoughts I've had.

1. I've come to the realization that I can't stand people younger than me or the same age (with a few exceptions). One of my closest friends is my age, she's from high school and we're still close. And I adore some of my high school friends who now go to my college but for the most part, I really dislike younger people or people of my age. I don't know, I guess it's because I had to grow up very fast so I didn't have time to be immature like the people who are younger than I am. And it's funny because one of my best and dearest friends is like a mom to me. I've known her for a few years and I absolutely adore her. We talk every single day and the inside jokes between us are hysterical. And we can never stay mad at each other..we talk all the time and she truly is one of my best friends.

2. Then there are people who are older than me yet I feel so much older than them..probably because they have the maturity of a 10 year old. I'm sorry, I don't have to scream for people to notice me. I don't have to be a total bitch either for people to like me. I'm just me.

3. For a long time, I didn't like talking about myself, who I am, what I like with people..afraid of them thinking it was stupid. I've learned that if I'm afraid to share that information with someone, it's not someone I can trust. There are people in my life that I can share things with, and maybe they don't understand it but they don't judge me for the things I like or for the person I am.

<3

picture challenge: day thirteen

day thirteen: a picture of your favorite band

sugarland<3

love them.

august 22nd daily challenge

you know, just the whole inspiring daily challenge thing.

Carolyn Hennesy on WhoSay

picture challenge: day tweleve

day twelve: a picture of something you love

true friendship<3

I've gotten to the point where I'm done trying to make people happy and impress people. I don't have to impress people for them to like me. For those who matter, I can just be myself. And it doesn't even affect me that there are people who don't like me because the truth is, if they don't like me I certainly don't like them. I surround myself with people who make me happy and who I make happy in return, anyone else is an afterthought.

daily challenge august 21st.

amazing<3

Carolyn Hennesy on WhoSay

picture challenge: day eleven

day eleven: a picture of something you hate

haters.

I hate how people feel the need to talk about me yet there is no truth to what they say. They don't know me and they never did. I'm sorry if I don't party and waste my life away. I'd actually like to have my liver when I'm 30. AND you think you know the people I support, wrong again. Believe me, they don't like you either. You're just people that I'm glad I'm nothing like. Oh and I love how you trash talk your so called group of friends yet you act like you're bff with them. FUNNY.

I'm happy with my life and I don't have to pretend to be anyone I'm not. If you don't like it, that's really too bad. And if you want to hate me for who I am, who I support and what I represent..be my guest.

"They don't hate us...they don't know us. They hate what we represent which is everything they're not. They hate themselves." <3

my breaking dimax heart

Sooo....for those who follow me on twitter, I've been talking about the Diane & Max breakup. :( They've broken up in the past and I'm PRAYING that this is a temporary breakup. All the other couples on GH are played by CONTRACT actors but this COUPLE RIGHT HERE both Carolyn and Derk aren't on contract and still make this couple absolutely wonderful. Here's to hoping the breakup is VERY short lived and GH will come to to their senses and reunite Diane & Max<3

daily challenge for august 19th.

another daily challenge that I just love because it's difficult for me to take compliments so I am going to try very hard today. <3

Carolyn Hennesy on WhoSay

picture challenge: day ten

day ten: a picture of the person you do the most messed up things with.

anna

she's one of my best friends and I known her for five plus years- it's funny because we can go through some time without talking because life and classes seem to get in the way but we pick up right where we left off. <3

daily challenge for august 18th

I like this daily challenge a lot because sometimes I feel like getting mouthy with people who deserve it but today I am going to remember not to engage. :)

Carolyn Hennesy on WhoSay

swiffer commercial

hero is in newest swiffer commercial. you know, just being her talented self. <3

picture challenge: day nine

day nine: a picture of a person who's gotten you through the most

aunties. jan & sue

they've gotten me through absolutely everything. LOVE them both SO very much<3

inspiration

this is why I absolutely adore her & she's my idol<3

touching gh moment.

Usually I don't cry (or sob..whatever you want to call it) during shows, especially not during GH. The only time I really do that is during sad scenes, like death or what not. But today I just balled. CH is my idol and she means the world to me and her acting is ALWAYS FABULOUS. But today when she got teary, I just couldn't help myself. When she said "I think we have one person, at one time, and we learn and we love and we leave," I just completely lost it. My entire life I've been used to everyone leaving because it happens, it's a fact of life. And right now my life is going amazingly well. I feel happy with who I am and the people in my life. The people in my life are people I will always cherish and they mean the absolute world to me but sometimes I can't help but think that they will leave. This really hit home for me and hearing my hero say it, it just made it that much more special for me.

daily challenge for august 17th.

you know, just hero doing her daily challenge.

Carolyn Hennesy on WhoSay

picture challenge: day eight.

day eight: a picture of your most treasured item

laptop.

two of my closest friends are people I talk to online every single day. and it keeps me connected with everyone I need to be. and I get to keep in contact with my hero either through email or twitter<3

so blessed

Sometimes I have to take a step back and think about how truly BLESSED I feel. Before last year, I felt like everything in my life was going wrong and I had no idea what I was going to do about it and stop it. But starting college last year was the BEST things that ever happened to me because I got to put everything of high school and all the bad memories behind me. And now I'm doing something that I love. Sure, I have to take classes that I don't like but I like school..I like being useful and I like working. Like I have two jobs: during the school year I work at this office at my school and the people I've met there are wonderful and they make me smile and laugh, and NEVER put me down. And the other job I have is working at a newspaper sports department. Who can say that they're doing that at 19. Sure, I feel stressed some days when I'm put on the spot but I feel SO blessed. I've spent many years..yes, my life is short I know, working hard at school and whatnot and I never thought it would pay off but to me it has. Like I have to remind myself how blessed I am because there are people who work hard and get nothing in return.

Sometimes I have to pinch myself and remind myself that I am truly blessed. Carolyn Hennesy is a big part of this<3 This is my IDOL. I can't even begin to explain what she means to me. She's been on GH for almost 5 YEARS for a role that was supposed to be 3 DAYS. That says something because the producers liked her. When I started watching her, I would giggle because she was so tough on the show and I loved her. Then she started doing interviews and all the stuff she said (continues to say) has touched me. I remember watching one of her interviews in which she said "I want nothing to do with anyone that doesn't want anything to do with me because of the way I look." When I heard this, I was in high school and I just remember sobbing. And in 2008, I finally met her. It truly was the happiest day of my life. She knew who I was, made me get up and hug her and she sat beside me. And at the end, she grabbed both my hands and told me how much it meant to her that I came. And since then, I've seen her six times. And whenever I see her, it makes my heart so happy.

This year, we got even closer and it makes my heart so happy. A lot of people don't like Carolyn because she speaks her mind but you know what, it's her opinion she can say WHATEVER SHE WANTS. If you don't like her, that's your problem. Most likely she doesn't like you anyway. But in the last year, people have been hateful and whenever this happens, we email and we're always talking. But this year, I was SO hesitant about going to GH weekend but I went because of Carolyn. And this year, by the time I was seeing her on Saturday, I was so worked up. I was absolutely disgusted with people and just wanted to go home. And I remember that morning we were chatting and I could breathe easier because of her. But the thing that I will remember for the rest of my life is the personal time I got to spend with her where she was asking me about Boston and about school. And I told her how I'm studying law and her friends and here were asking me what type of law. WHO TAKES THE TIME TO DO THAT?

And it's hysterical because Carolyn is SUCH a good judge of character and she knows people who aren't worth it. I had myself worked up for no reason because these people don't matter and I'm thankful I'm NOTHING like them. And Carolyn is true to who she is and she doesn't have to put on a fake show to draw attention to herself. She's special just the way she is and has the biggest heart of anyone I've ever met.<3

daily challenge for august 16th.

Carolyn Hennesy on WhoSay

picture challenge: day seven.

Day seven: a picture with someone who makes you laugh the most

brother.

sometimes he annoys me to no possible end but he makes me laugh a lot of the time and it's usually over the most random things.

picture challenge: day six

day six: a picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day

Jennifer from Sugarland. <3

Love her voice and her songs are out of this world.

daily challenge for august 14th.

daily challenge<3

Carolyn Hennesy on WhoSay

picture challenge: day five

day five: a picture of your favorite memory.

october 4, 2008

this memory is my favorite and absolute best.

I met Carolyn for the first time and I could have died on that day a happy girl. I remember that day as if it was yesterday. I remember her coming into Bradford's event early in the day and I almost couldn't breathe. I was just 'omg, there she is.' At the time, I just loved Carolyn and we talked on her message board and stuff. SO I just couldn't wait to meet her. And so that night at her event, I thought I had time to leave the event room for a second but as I opened the door Carolyn and Angela (who works for Debby O) was on the other side. All I can remember saying is "oh my god, carolyn." haha. And so the Q&A was epic..she is so funny. I remember when she got to my table, I was shaking and everything. And one of the girls I was with was like "Carolyn, this is Erika." And she was like "get up right now.." and she hugged me. Then she sat next to me and I was just so giddy. This day was almost three years ago now and thinking about it makes me so happy. Over the years, I've gotten closer with Carolyn and she makes my heart smile ALL THE TIME. She is so very inspirational and I am blessed to have her in my life.

daily challenge for august 13th

she just kills me. i can't deal with her perfectness. hero<3

Carolyn Hennesy on WhoSay

picture challenge: day four

day four: a picture of you and a family member.

my godmother & I

she's been in my life since I was a baby and I trust her with everything. She's always there when I need a talk and the number of inside things we have between us is priceless.

daily challenge for august 12th

you know, just my idol being inspirational. <3

Carolyn Hennesy on WhoSay

day two: best general hospital scene

just day two of my idol making general hospital stellar.

picture challenge: day three.

day three: a picture of the cast of your favorite show

general hospital

the actors of this show are so very talented and are amazing people and I've been privileged to meet the ones who have touched my life in the greatest way.

actors: carolyn<3, megan, derk, adrienne and scott

I've also met some fabulous people because of this show and I'll always be grateful for that.

best general hospital scene in ages

you know, just emmy nominated actress doing her thing on general hospital.

daily challenges

daily challenge for august 11 2011

Carolyn Hennesy on WhoSay

So she's pretty much my inspiration and my idol<3 She's my hero and over the almost five years I've known her, she's become a friend and I will cherish that for the rest of my life. She does these daily challenges every day and lately she's been posting them as video so I'm going to start putting them on my blog. I know for me whenever I'm having a bad day, I can look at these and think "I need to have this attitude and do good for someone else"

day two picture challenge

day two: a picture of you and someone you've been closest with the longest.

Nan.

She's raised me and means everything to me. I am so thankful for all that she has done for me.

100 day picture challenge.

Day 1: a picture of yourself and 10 facts.

1. The picture above is with my biggest inspiration Carolyn Hennesy. I've known her for almost five years and she truly is my biggest inspiration. Over the last year, I've learned so much from her. I was anxious for this year for a lot of reasons but it was also earth shattering for me as well because I learned a lot about the people I thought I knew. They aren't people I want in my life and they aren't people I'd ever want to consider friends. The small mindedness of them was a true eye opener for me and I learned that because of Carolyn. I am blessed every single day because she started off as my idol five years ago but today she has become a dear friend that I will cherish for my entire life.

2. I'm currently studying pre-law at school, getting my b.a in government and also my certification in paralegal studies.

3. Drinking. This is a loaded topic for me. My mom has battled with alcoholism for the majority of her life and is seven years sober now. And my idol has just reached her 11th year sober as well, that is amazing to me and it just makes me admire her more. I have friends who drink and that's their choice and I accept that but when someone patronizes others for drinking yet goes ahead, gets drunk themselves, I find that to be hypocritical.

4. Two of my best friends live miles and miles away but they are crucial in my life. I know if I ever need anything, or if I just need to talk, all I have to do is pick up the phone and call. Sometimes we use the term best friend too loosely, I know I did. I thought there was someone in my life I could consider my best friend but I learned something: she is nothing like me and I never want to be anything like her.

5. I struggle with my religion every single day. I was raised by my grandparents in going to church as Christian. It's hard to believe that things happen for a reason especially when life gets in the way and it feels like everything is going wrong. I struggle knowing what I have been raised as but also trying to find my own way. Scott Reeves is one of my biggest inspirations as well. He is an actor on General Hospital and a fabulous musician but he also is very dedicated to his faith. He's on twitter and whenever he posts a positive message (especially when I'm doubting my own faith) it makes me take a step back and just be thankful for the world around me.

6. California is one of my favorite places in the entire world. The weather is beautiful and the ocean is breathtaking. And I've seen my hero there so many times. I just love going there and taking in how beautiful it is.

7. "your support will be a lightening rod for some" I didn't truly understand when this was said to me a few weeks but now I do. Over the years, some people I thought who were truly good friends turned out not to be and I know my life is much better without them in it. Sometimes the things that hurt our hearts the most turn to be for the best.

8. My favorite shows include: general hospital, drop dead diva, glee and in plain sight.

9. Dot Marie Jones has become one of my other idols. I first started watching her on Glee but some of her experiences were so very similar to mine. Also she worked in a juvenile correctional facility, that is amazing. I've learned so much from her.

10. I'd love to visit Seattle someday. Something about that place just makes me want to visit.