three years ago today.

((Okay, so since it's October 1st on the east coast, the first Saturday of October, I'm putting this up because there is so much I want to say))

Three years ago tonight I met my idol<3 10.4.2008. And yes, I know it's not the 4th but it was the first Saturday in October. The way everything fell into place on the weeks leading up to the date I'll never forget was so special. So tons of GH stars were coming to Boston: Bradford, Brandon, Sebastian Roche & others. I was going to see B.B and B.A because this was technically my first GH event. I hadn't planned to see Sebastian but a few weeks before the events, Sebastian had to back out and I remember reading the email from Debby OConnor saying that Carolyn was filling in. LIKE words cannot express what this meant. I was junior in high school, just struggling through school. And I was only 16 so I couldn't go to FCW and meet her and stuff. And I was so worried that I'd never be able to meet her. Carolyn had been someone I admired because of what she had said in interviews and plus I loved her on GH. And like she kinda knew who I was because we had chatted on her message board and stuff (at this time, the people who ran her site still were active). So the night finally came and I will never never forget it.

So before her event started, I went to leave the room for a second and as I opened the door, there she was. I nearly died. I was like "oh my gosh Carolyn." And one of the people who works for Debby was like, you don't want to miss Carolyn's entrance. So then there was Q&A and then she went around to tables. We were last so we could get time with her. And I was such a hot mess. So someone (I don't even remember who now) was like this is Erika. And Carolyn was all like "get up right now.." and she made me hug her. And all I remember is her sitting next to me and asking me how I liked her books and it was amazing.

NEVER did I think three years later, I'd still be talking to her. As annoying as some parts were of my trip to L.A this summer was, seeing my idol and talking with her about everything made it all worth it. Like I've seen a lot of people call their idols their BFF and whatever but I can't do that. Like we're on different levels completely but I know that Carolyn has become such a friend and I almost have to pinch myself to make sure it's real.

I feel completely blessed, especially today, and everything that I've had to put up with is truly worth it.

picture challenge: day thirty

day 20: a picture of your favorite quote

THIS. It sums up everything I believe in and feel.

I think one of my favorite lines in this is "life is about the people you meet."

I have met some amazing people & they will be my life long friends. They've stood by me when I needed them and to put it more simply, they have changed my life.

picture challenge: day twenty nine

day twenty nine: a picture that makes you smile.

HI BFF! hahaha. This one was so hard for me but I picked this one. It was from GH weekend and this was one of my favorite days from the whole weekend. It was at the Luncheon & when Carolyn was on stage, she pointed to me. And like they moved her around the Luncheon room and when I finally got to her, she asked me how I was and she hugged me. And like, this picture is so cute. I just adore her so much<3

picture challenge: day twenty eight.

day twenty eight: a picture of your favorite place in the entire world.

this one was going to be a tie between my hometown of Boston and this, LA.

But I chose LA for this one. I have so many memories here 99.9% of them good. LA will always have a special place in my heart because some of the best things that have happened to me have happened here<3

picture challenge: day twenty seven

day twenty seven: a picture of your favorite night.

THIS RIGHT HERE.

OCTOBER 4 2008.

To date it is one of the happiest days of my life. I got to meet my hero<3

It's still unreal that I met her three years ago in October (like we've been talking for five..um, since the beginning of her start of GH).

Hero<3 I can't.

She's just too cute. I can't.

Carolyn Hennesy on WhoSay

picture challenge: day twenty six

day 26: a picture of something that means a lot to you.

my dreams.<3

we may not have the same dreams but they're mine and that's what counts.

picture challenge: day twenty five

day twenty five: a picture of you from this year.

kim and me!

one of my favorite days from this year

at the grove and LA for Carolyn's book signing.

4.10.11

daily challenge for september 16th.

she's just TOO cute for words.

Carolyn Hennesy on WhoSay

picture challenge: day twenty four

day twenty four: a picture of someone you miss

my pa<3

picture challenge: day twenty three

day twenty three: a picture of your favorite book.

19 minutes<3

so gut wrenching and sad.

makes me feel so bad for anyone who is treated harshly at school.

no one deserves that.

Picture Challenge: day twenty-two

day twenty-two: a picture of something you never leave the house without.

iphone<3

I don't go anywhere without it. I love it because all my favorite songs are on it so wherever I'm going, I just listen to my songs. And I like bringing it to keep updated with emails and stuff. But also I text my best friend every single day faithfully and we talk throughout the day. And I couldnt imagine not talking to her during the day.

day twenty: a picture of something you wish you could forget.

expectations.

I hate them.

Like we're expected to be a good friend yet when we need one in return, they're not there.

I'm so tired of the expectations people put on me because it's like they're waiting for me to screw up somehow.

picture challenge: day twenty

day twenty: a picture of a place you'd love to travel.

houston<3

like one of my best friends lives near here and plus I've always wanted to visit.

and I just love going to major cities for some reason. I like being a tourist and seeing touristy attractions.

picture challenge: day nineteen

day nineteen: a picture of something you love to do.

travel<3

I just like going to do different places and being a tourist...seeing all the different sights and monuments.