Whew. It's been a crazy couple of weeks emotionally. The last few weeks have been harder, though. Let me break it down:
I'm a sophomore a private college and tuition is like $30,000 a year (commuting). It's all covered by scholarships for the most part and a couple of loans here and there. Last year, I lived on campus and it was great. The school is a commuter school for the most part, so it doesn't exactly have a real campus. Anyway, it was great last year. But living there plus tuition is like 42,000 a year. So this year, I didn't want to take out loans so I decided to live at home. Three words: HELL ON EARTH. Seriously! So I made the mistake of taking an 8am class on MWF. Not my smartest moment at all. And so I'm up at 6:20, out of the house by 7. And like lately I've been feeling that it's such a waste. If I'm commuting every day and super miserable, then there's no point. So towards the end of last year, I was looking at universities to transfer to but nothing ever came of it. So the last few weeks, I've been searching high and low for a university around here.
Because I was literally lose it if I have stay at this school, living at home until next Fall. And it wouldn't be so bad if everyone at home left me alone, but they don't. I'm all for helping out my sibling but I'm not here to please them. I have two jobs, volunteer and go to class. And I have homework so I don't have time to make my world go around them. And it's really frustrating for me because my grandparents are so religious. Like the type who go to Church every Sunday without fail. And I was raised Christian, going to religious ed every week and Church. But now, I've hit a point where I'm not sure what I believe. And they don't get that. They think I should believe what they believe and they think I should go to church with them. But my idea is: why go to something I'm not even sure I believe in.
So there's the back story. So last week, I got my acceptance letter for Bridgewater. It's a public university about 30 minutes from here. I've literally been waiting for the acceptance for three weeks. And I don't talk about it with my grandmother because she doesn't want me to go or whatever. And it's so infuriating because she doesn't help pay for my tuition bills or another. I do that all on my own with my two jobs. And despite what she thinks, it's stressful. So I didn't even tell her how I applied there, or how I already told my current university, I'm not coming back for the spring. And the odd part is that the rest of my family is supportive. They want me to be in a place where I'm happy and thriving and working to get my degree. So I'm able to talk about it with my 2 aunts, my mom, my uncle and his wife. And on Saturday, I went to visit my two cousins and my uncle and his wife was asking about school and what's going on. And I can actually tell them.
And then even though my grandmother doesn't want me to go, she has been hounding about visiting. She wanted to go on Sunday but I was like, that's my only "me day" so I was going to ask her about today, and then she got into attitude so I was like whatever. And then last night she was mad about how everyone else knows about me going to this new university but it's like, they don't complain. They listen and accept my choice.
And like although it is a public university, it is known for education ( my major), and to live there plus tuition is HALF of what the private one is.
It's just been super frustrating and I can't wait for January<3
